Sushi and the Supermarket
Without my mother here, the food supply has been steadily dwindling down. So today I finally decided to go food shopping. When I entered the store, I noticed that my heart rate was up, and I was feeling slightly anxious. Public places are not always a problem for me, but the supermarket in particular makes me nervous. It is there that I am most likely to bump into people I am acquainted with.
Despite some social anxiety, I made my way through the store picking up items on the list. I was looking for something easy for dinner, and I stumbled across a sushi display. I love everything about sushi- the seaweed wrap covered in rice, the wasabi and soy sauce, the ginger, the chop sticks- everything, except- the raw fish. Problem solved: I picked out a vegetable roll that contained cucumber, avocado and shredded carrots. I think of it as sushi for beginners.
Sushi in cart, I weaved through the rest of the store, picking up what I needed.
When I found the last item on the list, Chap Stick, I started to move toward the checkout and finally ran into someone I knew. I was relieved to see that it was Mrs. C, one of my mother's friends.
"Is that you Mike? I'm not good at picking up faces when people have baseball hats on."
"Hi, Mrs. C, how are you?"
Her son, who is about my age, has bi-polar and also lives at home with his parents. Although I do not know them very well, I feel a connection to their family, since they are dealing with some similar mental health issues.
"Did your mother get married last weekend as planned?" she asked.
"Yeah, it was a nice ceremony. Everything went well."
"Oh, good to hear. You know, you guys are being so good about the whole thing. I know it must be difficult having someone new come into the picture, but it sounds like you and your brothers have been really supportive of your mother, and that's great. Roby really means a lot to her."
"I know," I said. "It's good to see her happy with someone."
"Now, did I hear that you're planning on going back to school for library science?"
"Well, it's not definite yet, but I'm thinking about it."
"I hope whatever you decide to do works out for the best."
"Thank you."
We said goodbye, and our conversation was over. As usual, the chance encounter that I had feared was not nearly as difficult as anticipated.
After getting through the check out line, I pushed my cart outside to the car, and loaded up the trunk with groceries. Mission accomplished.
And my sushi dinner was delicious.
9 comments:
Mike,
You are brave for feeling the anxiety and staying with it even to complete your shopping.
At times I have left my cart and came home without all I planned to shop for. I can see now why you are successful with your other obstacles. The easy thing to do is run when things get uncomfortable but you're not doing that.
I hope you are happy with yourself for getting through this, you stuck with it, that's super!
Kirs ~
ooooh, sushi..delicious!
Always,
Crusty~
Thanks for stopping over and saying hi, btw!!
I have the same issues when I go to the grocery at times not always but many times and I guess it is the social aspects. I also guess at times think that depending on what I am buying people will judge it either because of my weight or because of being on food stamps. I am so glad now that the food stamps are on a card that looks like a regular debit card. I have not eaten sushi much but what I have tried I do like.
Gotta say, I'm too chicken to try sushi. I just can't stand uncooked food.
I'm glad the store trip went well. Social situations can be hard for anyone. Take care!
I once lived with a woman whose affinity for things Asian was unrivaled. I miss her stir frys and the giggles as she tried on kimonos. Glad your shopping turned out pleasant. We are of like minds, you and I, Mike.
I am so like you about social outings, Mike. Isn't it true that our fears are often so much worse than the actual experience? If only we could find a magic button to switch them off!
Oh yum, sushi!
Hate sushi, LOVE your blog.
Thank you for linking to Joyful Music.
Best wishes,
Chris
Hi Chris,
Thanks so much for the compliment and for stopping by. I’m happy to link to your blogs—you are inspirational, and I thank you for sharing your life in your writing.
Take care.
Mike
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