Where My Dreams May Lead...

We had a poker game to celebrate last night. After all my relatives had left, I laid down on the couch at two a.m., and soon drifted off to sleep.

In my first dream of the new year, I was spending time with an old high school friend. In the dream, we felt great affection for each other, and we started kissing passionately- the kind of kisses that take your breath away.

As I started to wake up, I felt sad to leave her lips and the deep feelings of affection I had for her.

Wow, I thought, it has been a long time since I've been in the arms of a woman...

I felt part of me reawakening...

I felt a longing for the companionship of another...

I felt good, but lonely...

I started to evaluate my life.

I have made progress over the last year. No longer do I lay on the couch all day. I am more talkative, more engaged. But what lies beyond my small circle of comfort?

Nascent thoughts began to form in my mind: maybe it is time to step beyond myself... to push myself further out into the game of life. A job. An apartment. A girlfriend. For a long time it was too overwhelming to even consider striving for these goals. And in a way, it still is. But now I am almost able to desire these things, to imagine myself attaining them.

All this stirred up by the lips of a woman in a dream. It was more than a kiss, though. To me, it was a symbol of stepping back into the flow of life. My subconscious saying, don't forget what is out there... don't forget what possibilities life holds.

Early Morning Dreaming

I woke this morning with pleasant memories of the dream I was coming out of. I subscribe to the theory that dreams can be a vehicle for the subconscious to send messages and lessons to the conscious self. I had one such dream last night.

It took place in the future sometime, as was evident from a couple futuristic items, such as hoverboards (skateboards that hover- apparently my subconscious ideas about the future have been influenced heavily by Back to the Future). I kept asking my friends in the dream, Adam and Jeff, if I could use their hoverboards, even though I knew they would have no problem with it. Finally Adam said, "Yeah, dude, it's fine. Why are you worried about it? " And with those words, and his calm, carefree attitude that I sensed, a message arose into my mind. Don't be concerned with what other people think. Do what makes you happy. Granted, I should respect other people's possessions. But oddly enough, that was the message that came to me.

I've always been too anxious or sensitive about what other people think of me. I've known that I shouldn't be this way, but it is completely different when it comes to you out of the experience of a dream- I could feel the truth of the message.

I woke up to a slight dusting of icy snow on the ground, and felt peaceful. I felt hopeful. You can't control what other people think. You can't control the world. Do what makes you happy. I felt there was a world of possibility at my feet, just waiting for me to hop out of bed.